In their head – Not again

 “Dumped again.  Well, at least I won’t have to put up with his snoring anymore.  Or the way he just assumes I’ll do the cooking and cleaning up.  Or his loser friends, hanging around waiting for something to happen instead of getting out and doing something.  So why does it hurt?

“I’m better off.  Yeah.  Why did I keep going with Brett?  I know I want something more.  I know I can be happy.  Someday, I’ll be able to make that feeling last. 

“I wish I was more self-confident.  I keep hanging around with losers like Brett, just so I don’t feel so alone. Why don’t I think I deserve someone better?  Why do I keep settling for guys just because they want me?  Do I need approval that much?

“I should be fair.  Brett wasn’t that bad.  He was kind, just oblivious to what I wanted.  Made me feel like a shrew, nagging all the time to get him to pay attention.  Maybe I deserved to be dumped?

“Maybe it’s me.  Do I hate myself so much that I figure anyone who likes me must have a problem? 

“Is it for the best?  Maybe we’re both good people, and it just wasn’t meant to be.  Now we can both go and find someone right.  Or someone else, at least.  I gotta look for a special guy and do what it takes to make it work.  Make the choices myself.

“Just once, I’d like to be the dumper, not the dumpee.”

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